Hey Lucid’s ….So reluctantly I have found my way back to the dating world and it’s so funny how with each relationship or situation-ship that I leave or leaves me lol, I learn more and more about what I really want and don’t want, deal breakers or acceptables lol if that’s a word… Like while I don’t really care for dating and having to keep meeting new people and telling my story over and over, I feel it is good because again with each encounter it leaves me with more insight as to what I really want in mate and what will keep me happy. Now I am not talking about the basic things like having someone’s who’s Self-Sufficient, Hardworking, God Fearing, Honest, Affectionate, etc.… even though that’s getting harder to find, I mean those eccentric things, things that hold my attention or things that turn me off for that matter. I also learn more about the energies that I release and what I can do better at or pull back on.
So, with all of that being said, I have always been open to dating different type of men whether it was race, culture, lifestyle, or class. I have never been judgmental about those types of things as I feel you never know where you will find love or in who. But I have found that as I am getting older, I want someone more equally yoked or that fits me if that makes sense. I am not as accepting of certain things that I was accepting of when I was younger or last year for that matter. My deal breaker list is growing but I feel I have to relax on some of those things, if not I will grow old alone and I do not want that for myself, I need and want a husband in the near future lol.
My Deal Breakers
- Over Three Children
- No Accomplishments or Commitments
- Children under 16,
- Under 5’9 in height
- No Car
- Has a Roommate
- No employment or business
- Lacks in good Grooming
- Inability to Communicate well or have mature conversations
- Younger than me
The list gets longer, but those are my top deal breakers although I can cancel one or two.
So Lucid’s what are your deal breakers, do you feel mine need to be relaxed, comment below. Let us talk about it….
Till Next Time…..Kisses & Hugs
Hey Lucid’s, How are all of you? I pray better than okay. The last time I posted a blog, I had no idea that the very next month our lives would change drastically and probably forever. I know it sounds so cliche when people say that we are living in unprecedented times, but we truly are. Covid-19 has changed life as we know it for sure. While it seems that the summer is coming in and things are trying to get back to normal, I hardly feel that it will. I think not only the U.S but the whole world has a hard recovery ahead of us and it’s scary. I thank God that my life has not missed a beat since the start of this Pandemic and I pray that he continues to cover and protect all of us through this. I just fear for the people that are not as fortunate as some of us. I am scared of what they will face once this situation lets up. I remember looking at a poll a social media influence-er posted, she asked how people were feeling, 62% of them said not well, that showed that we are not fine as a people and something has to change.
Everything will be Okay!
While the future may be a little bleak or cloudy for a lot of us, We should still try and stay focused and steadfast in our goals and ambitions whether personal or professional. Try and take each day as they come and try and stay positive. A good practice to try and think positive is to write down all of the things that we are thankful for when feeling down, watching comedy or something to make us smile, or having a great uplifting conversation with a friend. Another thing that can be done in our down-time is creating goals or a vision board and putting those things in place, that will surely get us fired up.
The last and big to me that can ease our troubled hearts is to CONTROL our Social Media Intake. Monitor the people or things that we follow as it has an affect on our thoughts and feelings. Take a social media break if need be, we may feel that scrolling our timelines has no effect on us, but it actually does. If we tried taking a break for a week from social media, there will be a guaranteed difference in how we will feel. I know advise is always easier said then done, however we have to take care of ourselves and especially our mental health and thoughts.
We will all get through this some way or some how and it will all be okay. Again, I pray that all of you are doing okay and getting this with positive mind and optimistic thoughts. Do what you can for self each day and pray about the rest. Don’t carry any unnecessary stress especially for things that are out of your control. Well until next time friends. Remember to take care of yourself.
I have always wanted to be a transparent person and share my experiences and thoughts because I believe in one form or another, we all are brothers and sisters and can learn from each-other which is why I started this blog some time ago. So being super honest and revealing about my life is important, I’m not ashamed to share my challenges I have faced, bad decisions I have made, or my fears. I believe it’s always someone that will receive my message.
Today I wanted to talk about ‘The Meantime” what does one do in the meantime when they are facing challenges in life or trying to get past pain, hurt, disappointment or simply dealing with self-criticism. Often when we turn to self-help books, we always see the beginning challenges of the author and the end which is their successful point. They rarely discuss their meantime and if they do, they are not transparent so you as the reader are often still confused once you have read their book. When I say the meantime, I mean how do we get through the moments when it’s hard for us to get out of the bed in the morning because we are hopeless, stressed, hurting, or unmotivated. How do we keep going when we are tired and mentally exhausted? How do we keep an attitude of gratitude when our world seems to be coming apart? It’s simple friends, allow yourself to feel it, go trough it, and deal with it. You can not bury what’s going wrong, you can’t drink or smoke it away, it will still be there when you sober up, you also can not mask it. You have to allow yourself to go through whatever it is and get past it.
True story, I recently experienced a loss that really broke my heart, I literally felt physical pain from this hurt. I was in a relationship and not a typical boyfriend and girlfriend type thing but a real relationship where I and he invested quite a bit of time, energy, and love, among other things. We had real intimacy, and not on just a sexual level. We shared our goals, failures, wants, and fears. We were totally honest and vulnerable with each other and funny enough with all of those qualities we still struggled with communication which was highly important to me and not a big factor to him, this ultimately ended our relationship. I later found once we parted that all along, he was harboring all types of thoughts and feelings that I never knew existed. And while I knew that it was not my choice to end our relationship, and that I had given 110% of myself and heart to this person, I still questioned myself, what I did wrong, or if I could have changed this or that. When our break-up first occurred, it was more of a shock and I was trying to get answers, later the anger set in, but when that hurt hit, OMG guys, I thought my life was over because I had a wall up so tall when we met but later decided to allow him in and decided not to self-sabotage my relationships and be happy, I mean we were talking about marriage and I felt as though I was finally secured in a relationship and it was my last after I am 41, who wants to still be dating. I can remember not being able to sleep, waking up crying in the middle of the night, texting, calling, and emailing him to just talk to me. I immediately ceased everything in my life outside of going to work, but even then, I would have to leave my desk and go to the bathroom to let it out and cry.
Honestly friends, today I am still working through it but I wanted to share my story because I noticed that allowing myself to feel the pain, cry it out, journal, and whatever else I needed at the time helped me to work through it. I still have my days like today where I shed a tear, but again I allowed myself to feel it and talked about it with a friend who allowed me to vent. I am still working through it and in my meantime and writing this blog is also a help, I say all of this to say, work on Your Meantime, do the work you need to do to be happy, at peace, and the best version of you. Don’t run, hide, bury, or mask your challenges. Deal with them, it will equip you to move past things much easier and faster or face the challenges or fear you need to face head on. The things that I have listed below helps me quite a bit and gives me the strength not only for my situation but in all areas of my life.
Practice an Attitude of Gratitude, write down the things you are grateful for versus what you don’t have or feel you are missing.
Remember your goals and your purpose, don’t lose sight of them
Pray your way through your hurt or fears and ask for guidance
And if you need to take a break, do it but jump back on the saddle and stay focused
See a therapist if need be
Help someone help, and make your heart smile
Have and Awesome Week,
It’s a new year and a new day….Before 2020 came in, you told yourself that this would be your year, so what steps have you taken to make your goals manifest? Some of us wanted to become an entrepreneur, lose weight, start furthering our education, become a homeowner, or even leave that bloody relationship that no longer serves us. Well I am here to tell you to do it, start with what you have today, and I am not just saying this to you, I am speaking to myself as well. I promised myself I would become a homeowner this year and lose weight, and guess what, I have taken the steps to start that process by taking a first-time home-buyer’s class and taking my butt to the gym. Baby steps, I am doing what I can with what I have right now.
Pour Into Yourself
For so long lots of us has been the support for someone else, be it our spouse, family members, kids, or friends. We forget to take care of ourselves in the process. Yes, we can get up in the morning and put on our nice clothes, style our hair, and spray on our favorite fragrances, but are we really okay? Or are we feeling like we take care of everything and everybody with no one to take care of us or be our shoulder. Are we feeling used and unappreciated? Did you know we could avoid feeling that way if we considered and loved on ourselves more? And I am not saying to not support your loved ones, but if you are not giving to yourself, how can you love, support, and pour into someone else, or expect them to do the same for you in return.
My message for you today is to Take Care of You, Make Yourself Happy, Heal Whatever is Stopping you from being the Best Version of Yourself. Stop looking at or comparing yourself to others and their timelines, it’s not yours, worry about your own self. Live in your own divine time, appreciate what God has given you today, so that he may bless you tomorrow. Also, know that it is perfectly okay to put yourself first. And it’s perfectly okay to tell others no if you have nothing to give, especially if it’s taking away from you. Take the steps you need to take today with whatever you have now, if you don’t do anything but write down your plans or your vision, pray for guidance, or ask for help. Start Today friends, let’s not allow the summer or the end of the year to arrive and have accomplished nothing, I’ll say it again Start Today, Start Tonight, Start Right Now…….It’s your time, pour into yourself….
It’s “Transformation Tuesday” I know we all hate the start of a new week, however I also know that we all have plenty of goals and visions for #2020, so transform those Monday blues into having a “Terrific Tuesday” Work on your goals, vision, or yourself today…Make Monday jealous that Tuesday had a better you.
Have an awesome Day……
Good Morning Loves,
Welcome to the short month of February, the month of Love & Romance. And it’s Leap Year so we get one extra day…Let the Valentine Day planning begin.
Remember Valentines Day isn’t only about sharing love with a husband or wife, boyfriend and girlfriend or any other partners, it’s about spreading the Love. So if that means treating yourself, do it, if it means having a Valentines Dinner with the girls, do it. Whatever makes your heart smile this month, I’d say do it. “Be Good to Yourself “
Have an Awesome Saturday
I know I have been out of sight for a while. Life has been pretty interesting for me since late last year, lots of changes. Some good, some bad, but such is life right…
Well one of the changes I made was entering the entrepreneur arena, I started an online store selling my Organic homemade Sugar Scrubs and Bath Salts among other items. It has been a slow startup, but good thus far.
Please check out my website at empressbodyessentials.com
If you decide to make a purchase, use Discount Code (Spring10)
Hope all is well with you all.
Thanks for Reading
So I have hit my 40th year on God’s green earth and I can honestly say it doesn’t feel half bad. I used to think that I would feel a way about getting older, but no, I’m noticing the older I get, life actually gets better. So I’m looking for to many more years, God willing…
I couldn’t do a lot to celebrate my milestone due to me getting a promotion at work and not being able to take off for a birthday vacation which was my original birthday plan, to go on a cruise as I never have, but the training is a lot and long, so duty called. Nevertheless, I had a great dinner and got to see Maxwell in concert. “I love him”. He’s so talented.
Anyway I’m happy I’ve reached a good place in life. I’m gonna ride out these 40’s and take in my blessings.
Till next time,